so since I have decided not to go to China in June my husband seems much happier. But China still beckons me.

I'm back

yeah writing again. I feel I should go to china and I am headed to Jamaica. My family thinks I should go to Jamaica and I finally agreed tog go but ohhhh how I long for China.

pnemonia?

Besides being depressed I think my husband also has pnemonia...if I lay my head on his chest I hear pops and crackles. andmy friends do not seem to have a desire to talk to me and I feel so alone.

Seems to be the place

When I don't have aanyone to talk to...
How do I deal with my husband being depressed about leaving this ranch when I want to leave....why does it hurt so much to see him so down. I feel like I have failed him by not wanting to stay. I am bored out of my mind on the edge of tears and feel like I am falling into a pit.
How do I deal with the fact that our church bores him and the spirit is seldom felt there? He says he wants to stop going and maybe it it time to move on.

Where oh where has my little dog gone?

Nora is missing. Lovely Nora the ferocious cow dog. Sweet nora my companion.

New post

So, my mom is upset at my son and she griped to me for ten minutes and so I gave her the, I called you because I enjoy talking to-you-But-I-am -not enjoying-this-I will-call-you-some-other-time-click. It probably was rude and not honoring to her. It makes me want to cry. The whole situation eats me up inside.

a beggining

I somehow had to start a blog of my own in order that I might not publish anonymously on another blog. I wonder if I will use this?